Baggywrinkles

Well, I have finally come into the 21st Century :) Choose a name for your blog? That nearly got me stumped, I was frantically looking around for inspiration. Nothing to inspire me, I mean just in my eye line were a few things, nectar, Cath Kitson and S.S.Britain (no not the real one a picture) that made me think about boats.

Baggywrinkle is a soft covering for cables (or any other obstructions) to reduce sail chafe. There are many points in the rig of a large sailing ship where the sails come into contact with the standing rigging; unprotected sails would soon develop holes at the points of contact. Baggywrinkle provides a softer wearing surface for the sail. (Wikipedia)

Now you know! Can I see a few people scratching their heads, the answer is simple really. My late Hubby loved everything to do with boats, this name Baggywrinkle always made us laugh. So simple really and logical :)

So now you know I am a widow, hubby left us 5yrs ago to go sailing into the blueyonder. One day I hope to crew with him again but not for good few years! I am in my 50's with two kids in their 20's so hope I have time see them grow, marry, the usual stuff.

Being a widow earlier than I expected knocked me for six. I find myself even now looking at old couples thinking how unfair that we won't have that time ever. We used to talk about sitting in the car with the sun warming us through the windscreen whilst watching the river and eating our sandwiches. Lots of things we took for granted have been taken away. My hubby once said 'All the dreams of things he might do in years have come to an end'. That was hard to deal with so hard.

As the years have past my feelings are just the same you cannot just close the door and go 'Oh well thats it, time to start a new life', it really doesn't work that way at all. Lots of well meaning people seem to think that is just what you do and goodness you've been a widow for that long. Why does it matter how long you've been a widow it doesn't make the pain go away it still burns inside of you - well it does in me.

True I know people get married again or have partners living happy life's but truly I cannot see me ever doing that. I will stick with my animals seems a much nicer option :)

So have I completed my first blog? Can I rant and rave about everything? Will I be able to write funny amusing things? Will anyone ever read any of them? So many questions to answer. I reckon I will be back as I get braver with this techno stuff - welcome to world of blogging me :))